Monday, September 22, 2014

So I've decided to use this site to try out the gratitude tips suggested by the Happiness Institute in their latest newsletter.  If you want to follow them go out to;

Here are the tips;
"If you'd like to enjoy some or all of the benefits referred to (happiness, improved quality of life, better brain function and more) then try some of these simple but powerful tips...
  1. Find a mindfulness practice that works for you and practice it, stick at it daily, for at least a month
  2. Keep a gratitude journal writing down, daily, all those things in your life for which you're grateful
  3. Share those things in your life that make you "thankful";you can do this on The Happiness Institute's Facebook Page (HERE) and/or join our friends over at Project Thankful (HERE)
  4. Include, in as many conversations as possible, a focus on what's going well(rather than just what's not going well)
  5. And finally, just as it's important to focus on positives in life it's also important to screen out those things that unnecessarily cause distress or hurt."
So here goes...

1. I meditate and pray daily, Check
2. This is new - FB tends to be my negative journal.  So I'll have to strive to reduce or remove negative stuff.  Starting with "Friends" who post stuff that pushes my buttons. Or maybe this is #5?
3. Here is the really hard one. Even explaining how come it's hard would sound negative.
     (1) My son volunteering to drive me to work, because my car is in the shop today.
     (2) A young friend's complimentary description of me. Ah shucks! blushes.
     (3) For reaching that time in my life when my free time is my own. No more having to squeeze "Me time" between work, soccer matches and Parent Teacher meetings.
4. I was thinking I need more of those positive posters around to remind me to do this step.
5. See 2. 

See you later,,,,

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Mrs. I don't want to always be right

You know the joke that goes: "When I married Mr. Right I didn't know his middle name was Always."

Okay so I'm not terribly original but the sentiment is the same.  I wanted to be right about this but not always. What did I want to be right about, but not this time, you ask?  Well it's complicated. Someone I know made a decision that set my alarms off.  I just knew it was not going to work out. But my sensible voice kept telling me to butt out and let this responsible person make their own decisions. Yes the other side was going to show it's ugly face any time but I was convinced that expressing my concerns would only serve to alienate us from each other and that when the tide turned we needed to be close.

So here I am close to a heart broken person who is trying to pull it back together. I know with fair certainty that this too will pass still my heart is broken too.

We reach a certain age and the desire to care for others drives us to do things that we never imagined we would ever do. If you had asked me as a kid to sit at a dying persons side for days in a row reading to them. I would have begged you to not make me. But I've done that and would not have missed a minute of it for the world. If you showed me a picture of my dear husband when he was a teenager and told me we would be a happy old married couple someday, I would have laughed. As a young athletic person in my twenties if you had told me that someday I'd be so weak that I'd sit and ask for help for the slightest thing willingly, that would have been the fight of your life.

Still even in these moments when everything I once believed to be true turned out to be figments of my over active imagination. Still in those kind of moments I see that I was driven to be there in that place at that time. Because someone is/was going to need me or need something I can/will do for them. Being there for someone includes sharing some of their heartbreak. I'm not good at quoting scripture very accurately. I'm always forgetting the chapter or verse numbers. "Jesus wept.."

Does this all sound like I'm thinking that I am Wonder Woman.  Nah I'd never wear that short-boot combination. 

So maybe I'm Mrs. Never Right? Or perhaps Ms. Sometimes Right.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

30 days of thankfulness

Inspired by my dear husband I have been posting 30 days of Thanksgiving on my Facebook page.  One thankful item per day since the first of November. This is more difficult than it sounds.  Being a person who generally has a sarcastic and somewhat negative point of view. Oh and that tendency I have to be a tad forgetful. So here I am on my blog complaining about having to be thankful for 30 days. "That there is what you call ironical." It's not that I'm not genuinely thankful for many things. It's that I don't tend to think about them much. I could create a log of my 30 days here.  But I think that would be a little redundant. I could insert here an explanation of each item I am thankful for. Boring!

There is actually a deeper explanation to my personal failings at being thankful "out loud and public". I call it the dropped shoe syndrome. If I admit out loud that something good happened to me or that I perceived that something was good then either the good will end,  stop happening or worse yet, the good will be horribly reversed. See I told you I was negatively wired.

There is a bright side to all of this.  I have in the past few years "seen the light of my ways" and am attempting to correct this engrained response to good things. Now that's something to be thankful for!

This blog has been an experiment in voice recording. I wanted to put in that disclaimer, so I guess I'm grateful for the technology that allows me to record my "brilliant" thoughts while driving, because of course that is when I have them. And yes I know texting and driving are not safe. A. This is blogging, not texting. B. I'm using a voice recording system which allows me to keep my eyes on the road and my hands on the steering wheel. Still the results are not terribly satisfying as the voice recognition software does not include punctuations. So I have to go back and manually enter appropriate punctuation.  Guess that's the down side to this good thing.

Back to my thirty days of thanksgiving. Do you have any idea how hard it is to take a negative thing and find the thanksgiving in it? Seems like ever since I decided to follow dear Husband's lead, I've had a series of personal issues come up that are hardly what I'd call thanksgiving material. Two or three health issues, an overly emotional bit of news/drama from a difficult family member and the usual litany of automotive and financial concerns. Combined with my native lack of talent in the "joyful living" category and you have a perfect recipe for a certain lack of thankful. Not that I'm some kind of emotional vampire. (Those known for sucking the joy out of every room.) It's just that happy/happy is not my first thought in any given situation.  I'd be really identifying my age group if I started throwing around hints like I'm not exactly the Doris Day type.  Now here is where you're expecting me too insert a line about how I have found a way to do that little turn a frown upside down trick. But I'm not going to. Because I don't have one. I just sit there starring at my screen and the words don't come. Which cleverly brings me back to my voice recording experiment. See my best ideas come during my often silent drive to work each day. Problem is, by the time I reach the office, where I could safely write those clever thoughts down, they have vanished. Solution = Voice recorder.

Thinking now that I actually have a good reason for creating a side list of those nearly thirty thankful things. But that's another blog.